The Football Coach

Some of you will probably never have the priviledge of meeting my Aunt Kathy, and that's a shame. She is not really my aunt but I see her as such since she is a good friend of my mom and I, and a 2nd mom to me here in TN. She's crazy,outgoing, strong, and oh so encouraging. We were sitting at a lunch/informal meeting on Sunday and the comment was made that she might have been a football coach in a past life. And if I believed in past lives, I would probably have to agree.

You see I firmly believe that God has called me on this life changing journey. I believe that through MC that God is going to change me, and therefore help me to change the world. I believe I am shaking up hell by moving forward and so The Father of all Lies is attacking me in the most powerful place he can... my mind. He has attacked my insecurities and self doubt. It hurts, its hard, and I worry that some days he gains ground.

But Aunt Kathy-COACH will not let me be discouraged, when I feel discouraged and like I can't win she reminds me its only the 3rd quarter and I still have plenty of time to get there. Shes been reminding me how many times God has pulled through for me, even if it's last minute.

So thank you Aunt Kathy for being my strong encourager!!! I love you so much lady.

Update

I wanted to update you all on what's been going on with this great adventure. Since I last wrote I have received two support checks. They weren't extremely large checks but they were of great value to me. And one of them was attached with a simple note and a piece of sentiment. It encouraged me so much to see that these people believed in me enough to support me in this incredible journey.

I have been studying and listening, learning and loving, talking and teaching. I have been growing. I have had strangers speak over me with words I know came from the father. Thetug of war still continues in my heart. I know he is pulling me out of my comfort zone, which is a scary concept. I know there will be days ahead of me where I retreat into myself, where I shut out everyone around me and just ache. But I know I will be held. I know that the Lord will send his angels to watch over me in my dark days. I know this because a stranger gave me those words.

For those of you who I have shared this with, I know you pray. So please pray for me. Pray that I will lose myself, my own stupid ways. That our father will give me strength and push me forward.

This song is something that has stuck with me and I think it says a lot:

The more I seek you, the more I find you
The more I find you, the more I love you

I want to sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hands
Lean back against you and breathe, to feel your heart beat
This love is so real, its more than I can stand
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming me